coming Out Age:  33

Story:

Well this is my story. I am a most of the time happily
 married (to a man) woman. I have a great career and a
 wonderful life with two beautiful children. I can
 remember as a child, never fitting in and always feeling
 different.When I was twelve I remembered having my
 first sexual dream about one of my best friends. I
 remember being so ashamed, that I had a fight with her the
 next day and we stop being friends. This would happen
 anytime I got close to anyone. At 16, I decided to have
 sex with a guy, maybe these feelings would go away.
 After kissing my long trail of frogs, no prince, and
 I'm still having fanasties about women. So at 19, I meet
 my husband.He was smart,ambitious,spritual sound,and
 he loved me. One day we were walking around campus
 talking and we both got distracted by the same beautiful
 girl with a body like a goddess. He then leaned over
 and said "I see you looking".I was so embarassed that I
 turned beet-red,which is kind of hard to do because
 of my coffee-brown! complexion but it happened.I ran to my room
 crying.The next day we talked and I admitted my feelings.I
 also told him that I never felt this way about a man and
 I only wanted to be with him. Two months later we got
 married.Life was most of the time great.But some thing
 was missing.We thought it was a baby. I had my son
 three years later. We were happy most of the time,but I
 began to feel trapped and wanted to run away.My
 husband seemed to know what I was feeling before I told him.
 He said maybe you should experience your sexuality.So
 I began to go online,play in the chat rooms,etc.We
 even decided to maybe experience the swinging
 lifestyle.After about a year,I decided that I only wanted to be
 with women and the only man I wanted to be with was my
 husband. I also didn't want to slept around anymore.
 If I was going to be with a woman I wanted her to be a
 part of my family. Last August I meet Dee. She was
 sexy and smart. She made me feel like I was free. I
 instantly fell for he!r. She was moving to Ga and 
 was having a trouble getting settle, so my
 husband and agreed to let her stay in our house until
 she got settle. She had two small children that she
 had adopted with her last girlfriend. Life was good but
 I began to only want to be with her.I began to not
 want the life that I had with my husband of 15yrs to be
 with this woman I just met. I never kissed so much or
 wanted the world to know that I was in love with this
 woman. D was not a femme at all, she was boyish, so
 when people saw us they knew. So that cause a big
 problem with my husband. The understanding that I thought
 he had for me came only if it was our little secret. I
 was tried of the secrets and lies, I just wanted to be
 me!So last December I came out to my family, my
 children and the world.After a while he admitted he didn't
 like this,but it's something he has to accept because
 he loved me.So he welcomed Dee into our family.
 Well I am still married to my husband and Dee and I
 are no longer together(Just wasn't my princess)but now
 I'm happy that I don't have to hide the real me
 anymore. You may asked why are you still with your husband,
 He still my best friend and you just don't throw that
 away.