Coming Out Age: 45

Story:

I'm 45 years old and in love with a 24 year old woman. It scares the hell out of me. I'm afraid 
our age difference is too much to overcome. She has helped me to feel alive again. The last time 
I had a relationship with a woman was more than 20 years ago and I'd tried to make myself forget 
what it was like to be with a woman. All these years I've been fighting my feelings...but I could 
not ignore her. She is a beautiful, caring, and sexy woman. I feel whole when I'm with her. 

I've always had feelings for and been attracted to women. I've had several "encounters" over the 
years. There is nothing like th touch of woman and the excitment I feel everytime I'm with my girlfriend. 

I am currently married to a man I've known for 15 years and very unhappy emotionally. I hate having 
sex with him. I always have to fanatsize about a woman to even tolerate the sex. He is a great guy 
overall but he doesn't make me happy. I want a divorce but don't know how to ask. He has no idea that 
I have been with other women in my past. We have a daughter together. I'm afraid of hurting her if we 
split. I cry a lot because I'm living a lie...but I don't want to lie anymore.